The box collapsed...

well.. the box that i was caged in is now open...

A wall fell in and the others seemed to follow..

although the other three are still around me, they do not seem to enclose me too much...

But now that i'm free.. i don't know what to do with myself...

Which way do i go now?

This much freedom scares me...

I'm so free hat its exhausting...

I have no energy anymore and don't know who i am anymore...

I'm beginning to miss the box...

Empty

I've lost everything...

I let go of the one thing that was my heart...

I pushed my heart into a shoe box and hid it in the back of my body...

I'm empty and worthless now...

I'm not myself...

All the things that interested me once now just hurts me even more...

I can't believe i let you go...

I know its probably for the best....

But i didn't know whats best hurts so much...

Maybe this pain will prove to be helpful...

But for right now, i feel as if my whole body is empty...

I have nothing inside anymore...

I hope one day i will be whole again...

The box

I'm stuck in a box, surrounded by four different doors.

Each seems to be pulling me toward it, promising my mind all these things that i want.

I'm smart enough to pick out the lies from each door, but am i strong enough to pick just one?

I've never been so torn in my life.

I've never been stuck in a box like this, and when i have, the door was simple and easy to choose.

But four different doors? When did things get so complicated?

When did i get so weak as to not be able to choose the right path?

But each door has a loud voice calling to me, appealing to all five of my senses.

I feel as if i stand here much longer my body will be torn apart.

I will no longer be whole and i will be stuck forever in this horrible box...

I'll just be broken again... But this time, even more so that i will never find all the pieces.

I know....

I know i'm not perfect...

So why do i keep trying?

I know i have changed a lot since then...

But in a good way or in a bad way?

I know i should be doing better than this...

So why don't i try?

I know i'm not gonna be able to make everyone happy...

But does that list of people include myself?

Keeping above water

I can't wade in the water forever...

Eventually my arms and legs will give out...

Eventually i will run out of reasons to keep my head above the water...

I'll just sink to the bottom and lay there...

suspended between heaven and hell by the weightless water...

motionless with the fish and sharks circling me...

I'll let the gentile water move around me...

Eventually, i will fade...

I'll be consumed by the water that drowns me...

What do i do?

I'm pulled between two things!

I'm so confused!

I don't know what to do anymore!

Two things that are so great are pulling me apart!

I HATE THIS!

I need help!

I don't know what to choose!

One side I have known for so long!

And the other is so special!

I can't deal with this anymore!

Please.... If i keep getting pulled in these different directions i'm break...

Hummingbird

I'm ready, and i'm set.

But i can't go.

You showed up, and you said all those things...

I can't go now...

But why can't i? huh?

I shouldn't want this right?

I should be happy with what i have.

So why does it feel like i'm falling again?

I shouldn't want this right?

Right.... so why do I?

You make me feel so special...

But i can't just abandon all my dreams just for one situation...

If i did i would never get anywhere in life...

But you keep pulling me farther and farther into your arms

I can't seem to pull away anymore...

You hold me on the edge and call me to jump off..

And i know if i do i will regret it.

I'm already chained to the ground.

I'm already set so far into the earth, i don't think i could move even if i wanted to.

But is it good to be chained down so early?